Starceleb? Not for me! Or is it?

It was an experience though. I just thought I'd give it a shot. Took the monorail down to the Parkroyal and I got there with minimal effort. It was different than I had expected. I thought the auditions would be buzzing with people but much to my dismay there wasn't.

So i quickly signed up, sat down and looked around. A girl with her family on my right and the production house crew on my left. Interesting to see how they actually shoot - as in record things in segments. So they had us do the ''I'm here because....'' and ''I'm going in now!..". You don't actually go in :)

There were 2 levels to the audition. First one was a simple introduction of myself and some fact-finding. Got through that. No criminal records! Then I was given a script and told to present that in the second part of the audition. Simple?

Before I knew it I was in the audition room before 3 judges, all of whom I believe are celebrities or at least have some socialite standing. However, I was totally clueless as to who they actually were. So there I was introducing myself again and we started out with a warm-up chat.

It was pretty obvious that I was nervous. I was fidgety and tense. And they asked me to catwalk. So ladies and gentlemen..I hope if it does air on national TV, spare me the embarassment. Then came the dreaded script presentation, I got stuck 3 times. My mind went blank in the faces of the camera, lights and judges. I was wishing that I hadn't been born. With some help from the judges, I managed to finish what I started. Note: they were really nice.

Thanks to American Idol, now all shows must have a 2/3 majority in order for you to proceed. In a nutshell, 2 of them gave me the thumbs up while another thought otherwise. I've discovered that I have bubbling charisma (laughs intently) and that I needed to put on more weight and my sense of dressing was way below what they would deem presentable in the media (it is a hosting and modelling show after all).

After much debate, they decided to let me through to the next stage. The lady who said 'no' mentioned that I was not sure about myself and that it showed in the process of the audition.

Eversince I got to KL, I'm so unsure about so many things. Guess her saying that it showed was an understatement. Cheap sales on question marks.

Recently got 2 interviews. One to work for jobstreet and the other for nevcorp - an advert and marketing company. Choices choices but i feel like im more inclined to the former.

After discussing it with mom, I don't think I'll be pursuing ''starceleb''. Besides, it was from a 'nothing better to do sunday'.

To all of you peeps who are facing the challenge of trying to figure what to do with your life and in the process getting to know yourself better, you have my support! All the best to you wherever you are!